I'm too negative. I have to start counting my blessings and let anything else be pure memories, another set of lessons to be learned. I am blessed, I truly am. Little joys, the reasons to smile, they're everywhere, only if I stop for a while and let them sink into me.
Like the chance I had to make my mother smile.
And the silly joke that made my brother laugh.
And how people were genuinely happy for every triumph and every success.
And just to be able to breathe and live for another day. He didn't get the chance to do so.
Why should I waste something that he'd trade everything for?
I know I can sleep well tonight. So will I for the days to come. Only if I choose to. And tonight, I choose to.
