I'm sorry for feeling so lonely even when I know for a fact that there are people who care about me. And it makes me feel so guilty, so ungrateful, so stupid. But I cannot burden them with the weight of my thoughts. It's not that they wouldn't understand. It's just that I'm afraid that even after telling them what's really going on inside my head and my heart, those terrible feelings will not go away and only become stronger. And I'm well on my way to be defeated. I'm selfish. And I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
