Most of the time, I choose not to talk about what's going on inside my skull and within my ribs because I don't think they can understand even if they try, and when you don't understand something, it's easy to feel afraid of it. And often we choose to flee. And I don't think I can handle being left behind after opening up to someone and showing them the darkest parts of yourself and letting yourself be as vulnerable. I guess I just don't want to experience abandonment ever again because it never really goes away. It kinda lives with you forever.
